Friday, November 9, 2001

November 09, 2001

The purpose of the journal is to keep track of the emotions and my wishes for my two children.  In hindsight, I wish I had done this during the long process and wait for RaeAnne.  My hope is that RaeAnne and "whom ever her sibling from China is" will share this book.

We have requested another girl from China, but sometimes people have been referred boys!  I have wondered about how we will handle the news if we are offered a boy.  We have picked names for a boy or a girl, so I guess we will see.

When we began the long road "journey" for RaeAnne, I was very excited about becoming a Mommy.  Very rarely did I doubt my abilities of being a good Mom.  That is until we received our referral.  Then after seeing that beautiful little face, I started thinking "Can I be the kind of Mother she deserves?"  It didn't help being an "older" Mom.  All my friends who's children were already grown up kept saying "You don't know what you are getting yourself in to!"  I started responding back to them with "So would you relive your life without your kids?"  Of course, they always say "No!"



We started researching adoption on the internet, March 1999, after about one month we chose China.  The main reason was the children from China are usually very healthy.  In Russia we found out that they drug the babies to keep them quiet.  Another reason, they are usually under one year of age.  This was something important to me.  I wanted to know our child from the earliest in their life that I could.  I wanted and needed to experience diapers, bottles, and all the wonderful things that go along with motherhood!

RaeAnne turned 9 months old just two days after being placed in our arms!  My wish had come true!  I am a Mommy!  RaeAnne is a wonderful baby.  She is always happy and loves new adventures.  Our travel group named her "the Happy Baby!"  This continues even today.  She started to get cranky sometimes when she doesn't get her way, but she will be two in December.

 
 

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